ScaredSad, You sound so brave, please don't give up. You really can do this. Judging by the strength I hear in your post, you have everything you need to be able to get through this, your just need to believe again. I believe you can do it.
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"We can't talk at the same time! It doesn't work like that! I talk, you talk, I talk, you talk!!" ~ Peanut