I have felt so yucky today. I went to my wonderful T today and she opened up some memories i have pushed down for so long. I actually have physical fellings like vomiting and hurt in places that she hurt me. I feel so ashamed cause the supossed to be mother hurt her daughter. That makes me fell sooo ashamed. I think i am so dirty no matter hoe much i try to scrub it off. It won't go away... How do you get it to go away? I know there is healing but does that nasty feeling ever go away?