(((((((((((Silver, Lyn, Minime, Pachy))))))))))
thanks.
I *Finally* got to bring this into T tonight. I don't know what I expected... lights to go on, trumpets to sound, pieces to make sense.... I had as much disconnect, confusion, and bafflement tonight as i did the night this came to light... There are a lot of things that "fit" with this being possible. The hands, arms, and legs/feet going numb and to sleep and having pain for no medical reason (have been gettine worse every year), how they ran their household and felt they had to "get the devil out of me".... lots of things. but still, i was like "can this really have happened? this being tied up and left? alone? with spiders?" i kept asking T where this image came from. She said for me to just let it be, be open to it, know that i process a lot, and that often more information comes to me later, and over time. hmmmmm.... and my shoulder joints have been malfunctioning for years, as has my wrist. More pieces? or a very active imagination?
THere i go again dismissing my body signals, and the fact of the DID/MPD dx. Easier to believe i am crazy than it is to acknowledge these events as real.