I didn't go and get stiches because i don't want to be labelled and im scared of the consequences.
I don't really talk about it..
i told my T i don't do it...

I was just so angry at myself
with complete self hatred
and it was the only thing that rid me of that disgust

I don't do it all that often
but when i do...
i do it with such anger
and i do it as hard as i can....

and i don't know why it helps but it does.