(((BeckyC))))))))))))))))))))))) first of all it was not your fault what your mom did...
Thats the hardest one to except I think.....to put in our hearts...that you did not deserve it..nor asked for it...
With lots of work with you T things will improve over time...
And yes you can have physical feelings...You may want to tell your T
Healing takes time.....you will make it...please know you matter here...
and we are all here to listen to you.....
sometimes talking it out can help alot and ppl listening
Hope things get better ...
muffy