Hello, my brother-in-law is by-polar and he also is depressed fall and winter and manic spring and summer. I feel the same way as you. I am taking care of sick mom, and living in my bedroom. Some say just go out and do something, but it is very hard when you are just worn out. I have gone to the local libary and once in a while chet chat with some one. I did feel a lot better. I use to love the holidays too, but now I think they are just a commerical play. I like tofind some old wine-o who looks like heck and just walk up to him and say hello and give him 20 bucks or so. Almost every time, I see a tear in his eye. That makes me feel the Christian spirit of the season. Try it you might like it, just help someone and tell no one. It will put a smile on your face. I send you a hug and hang in there, Greg