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Oct 09, 2008, 12:44 PM
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 I emailed him this last night:
I really wanted to comment on was your statement: "Don't worry-- I will catch you if you fall." There is the literal meaning, of course-- that if I actually passed out in your office, I doubt you would let me drop to the floor and crack my poor head open... and then there is the greater meaning of which I constructed an understanding... that your words went so beyond the literal meaning for me.
I have no idea if you consciously realized the greater significance to what you said. However, I trust my interpretation in regards to the meaning that I constructed from your statement. I wanted you to know what I heard when you said that. I know you were concerned in regards to what extent I felt safe in your office-- I need you to know that I I feel safe with you. Thank you for not being scared or running away (Where the hell would you run anyway? Under your desk?) And finally, thank you for the touch of your hand. At the very end of the session, it was difficult, as you may already know, to not want to be closer to you-- not in a sexual way but in a way, but in a way in which I would feel protected.... to be held is to be contained, and to decrease the feelings of loss of control that result from experiencing such emotional intensity in the open... a small room becomes quite overwhelming... but I believe that is is why it is so important for me to be able to feel the touch of your hands... because, to me, it is both protective and grounding.
I haven't heard back yet.... I left him a msg. to let him know to check his email b/c he tells me to do that. I am not sure if he would have gotten a chance to read it yet-- there is no computer access at his office.
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