Thanks Red, but it feels like it. I don't get better. All I do is complain and people are sick of me complaining. When I open myself up to someone they don't care or they leave me. It feels like people only care enough until I really need help- then they're gone. I'm used to being left to my own devices, not having help, being alone, people not caring, etc. It still hurts though, I'm more bothered then I should be. People can stand me when I don't need help or when I'm joking around.

Thank you Cedar, that was very touching.