You deserve a safe home though. You said he is yelling at you and grabbing you, that is not okay. Your experience counts, you are worth while, the fact that you are depressed and having flashbacks means you can use help and support. I really encourage you to get therapy, to help you be safe first.

Therapy can also help you figure out how to deal with him. I understand that he is going through a hard time but his behavior isn't working for you, and I personally think this is important to focus on.

He needs help, he needs to be in therapy himself.

You are in a caregiver situation. Caregivers never ever deserve being abused. He needs to not lash out at you. If he can't control this then he needs help til he can control it.

I feel very strongly about this. His meds may be causing mood swings, he is ill also, he may not mean to be abusive, but he is scaring you and you are anxious. You deserve to be well treated.