Hi blondz,

Sometimes when you're sick, the healthiest thing is to take meds. Last year I was hospitalized with a ruptured appendix...if it weren't for the antibiotics, I could have died.

For me, it's the same with psych meds. I'd rather not have to take anything, but I finally admitted to myself that my brain is not well. That admission took a long time. Just as with the antibiotics, psych meds have most likely kept me alive.

Like bizi, I lost a brother to suicide, and it is awful. He was probably bipolar I or II (I'm II) but never correctly diagnosed or treated. Glad you are hanging in there!