Two days in a row I've had a good day! Two!! AND my dad had surgery today AND I had to deal with my sister AND a bad phone call. And I'm ok. The other day my t was telling me how my feelings of worthlessness and failure and such are like habits. I've been doing them so long. Then he asked me how I get dressed in the morning. So I told him, then he said, "I bet if I asked you to change the order of how you get dressed for a week, it would be hard. If I said put your shirt on first, then your socks, then your pants, you would probably have a very hard time doing it. It's the same thing with thoughts." So yesterday and today I made a conscious effort to not get dressed in the same order to prove to myself I can do it. And I had good days. Not that they are related, but I can change that, so maybe I'm not totally hopeless! I had several instances today where I felt bad and had to change my thinking before it I let it consume me. Especially in dealing with my sister. But I did it. Just wanted to share how much I like the number two right now!!!