I am warning before hand...this is going to contain MAJOR triggers....
please only read if in good place okay?

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JUST SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**** THAT IS ALL I WANT DO IS SCREAM UNTIL MY DAMN LUNGS EXPLODE AND I DIE!
IS THAT REALLY SO MUCH TO ASK FOR?

So much anger, I"m such a ****ing ****up
dumb stupid...deserve to be dead, deserve what happened to me

Today was rage day, I broke my pinkie finger punching a coke machine, God it felt so damn good to hurt like that, who knew a broken bone could bring so much pleasure?

Anxiety out the roof today, couldn't stay focused in class, kept getting flashes of rage which set off anxiety....skipped next class, bad me, stupid me, faliure me

STUPID DUMB, WORTHLESS, PIECE OF TRASH ME!!!!!
I'M SO DAMN JUST GOD THERE AREN'T EVEN WORDS TO DISCRIBE HOW HORRIBLE A PERSON I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dirty *****, Dirty *****,
It's just a game...
Don't you like to play games?

NO NO I DON'T WANT TO PLAY YOUR GAMES...PLEASE OH GOD I DON'T WANT TO PLAY HIS GAMES. AND I DON'T WANT TO PLAY THE BAD GIRL'S GAMES EITHER....
SHH NOT SUPPOSED TO TELL...
JUST SHUT UP SILVER....JUST SHUT UP..

Nowhere to hide, nowhere to turn...this pain is eating me alive,
munching away from the inside out....

we hurts so much...why noone love us, why everyone hate us?
why noone protect silver friend? whys...whys?

whys we hurt?
Whys noones protect da Silver friend...
Why people hurt da silver friend?

AROOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH