i think my biggest issue is for all meds i have taken do make me emotionally numb... and that .. i just cant explain, when your meant to be happy youre nothing when youre meant to be sad your nothing. one thing that was good about my non med ways was before they found it was BPD they thought i had depression and prescribed me prozac, i just tossed the prescription and it was a good thing i did because apparently those make you worse when you have BPD. I find it hard to find support because i have no friends, my parents dont truly understand but try and my boyfriend thinks there's no such thing as emotions and at first would believe that all mental conditions are made up to make "difficult" people feel better about themselves because they have something to blame... but he's starting to realize now that its a real thing, i guess he finds me a little abnormal lol.
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