I can understand that...emotionally numb is such a limbo state...based on my limited knowledge BPD and BP should be treated in different ways...BPD is behavioral and BP more chemistry...

Understanding if you are experiencing one or the other or maybe both at the same time may help. For my BPD I went through a class (very good) that helped get more understanding. Some of the symptoms overlap...this can give the impression that a certain dosage of a med is required...might be too much...

I happened to see a T who was the first person to put on "the class" in our state for BPD and is very familiar with BP...there is much more I would like to share...

I wanted to let you know that you are not alone in the no friends or people understanding.