Yes, yesterday when talking in my session, my doc said said anyone would have issues dealing with what I am going through, and all I could say was 'Not me' then after a pause I felt so low because I was indeed having issues dealing with it all.

I do not know if it is the mental state or training in the corps or the ole 'don't tell me I can't' but I always feel I can do better, regardless of the situation. And many days even now, I have the feeling that while I may have lost the battle and have some pride in that, there are other days like yesterday I flip into a extreme depression and panic. Snapping at those that care, because I am not how it should be in my mind.

I am feeling better this morning, maybe cause I am not fully awake yet. The meds at night really put me out and help control the depression. I have a lot of driving today, and I pray I don't get hit by another panic attack like yesterday.