Griffe, I have been reading your posts over the last few months and I see you are making progress...

You say that you can't throw a ball to your kids. You see this one negative and that is all you see. Open your eyes a little wider. There are other possibilities out there that you aren't seeing. Your children will be thrilled just to interact with you. Children really don't ask for much. What they mostly want is to have loving interaction between themselves and their parents. If they have that they are pretty much set.

Your other posts Griffe deal with you being unable to face your true feelings. It seems that you try to avoid your true feelings for various reasons and then you do the next best thing, sit on the pitty pot. I hope you take this well Griffe because I am saying it with love. I guess my post is following Mulitpixies, she gave you a swift kick in the butt and I followed her!

You say you don't know why you try because you don't get success. Maybe your goals are too big at this point? Success comes with step by step babysteps. You take a problem and write down your solution that you want but you don't jump from one end to the other. You break the goal down into tiny, doable, day to day steps and then you will get there.