Ryan you are right I do want to forgive him. I would love to just scream at him at the top of my lungs, but I know that would get me No Where any faster. To look at him, to be near him at all makes me freeze, all of these feelings come rushing over me and I end up running out the door. I cant not fathom why one earth anyone could hurt a child. I have two and they mean everything to me. They are what keep me going!!!