thx guys, im not sure if i tried lamictal or not, at the beginning i was like whatever lol. basically i started on low doses of a certain pill then get them higher until it was going to effect me then id try a new one and do the same thing.. and after at least 4-5 different ones, i said PLEASE have mercy and stop, ill try without meds a bit and see how i can cope.. id really like to go to a seminar, but i dont think they really have anything here in canada..