Life I am so sad that you hurt your self, Im not mad or anything but sad because I care about you. Im so sorry that things are so hard. I wish that you didnt have to suffer.
I hate this stupid stupid stupid illness. I hate that it takes us to these places and we have no where to go except to ourselves. I hate this so much. Im really angry at the people who hurt you. I want to do something mean to them like egg their house. Im crying because I see in you the same pain I have in me and Im helpless to stop it in either place. Its not fair. I want to tell you that you are so important to this world to me and others here. i want you to see the beauty in you that I see. I want you to se the valuable human being that I see when I see you. ( I know I dont see you see you but i see you through your words) I want you to love yourself because you deserve it. I know when I say those words you think that will never happen I dont even like myself and no one else has taught me that I am worth liking or loving. I know that feeling. I cant do this for myself but im trying and I want it for you. I feel like we are sisters. i cant explain why but I feel like u are my sister. I want to hug you and tell you all the things i would tell my own sisters if they were not so annoying. I want to tell you that you are so important to me and I care about you. Im crying and i dont cry because this stupid crap that happened to us is crappy. The thought of you on the bathroom floor hurting yourslef lst night breaks my heart because i was thinking of you alot last night and wishing I could know you were safe. I have never had anyone in my life that gets what its like to be me so completely and I am not letting go of you ever. Im crying for you and that little girl who you were and wish that you could love her like i love her. I cant love my own 9 year old self she is spending the weekend with my T but i can love your little girl you used to be. My t could take yours for a while if u need a break. Please talk to me when u feel so bad if u can. I can text you from my phone if u want. That way if your in the bathroom u can text me. can u take care of my friend life? Clean up her cuts and brush her hair? I never met anyone who know what it is like to be me and I will not clos my eyes on her ok? Im not going to check my spelling or typing because this is from the heart and the heart is full love not spell check.