I'm sorry to hear that you've had to deal with so much. It just seems like one thing after another for you. I was just going to suggest the same thing that Pat did, finding a women's shelter where you and your children could be safe. Please don't give up hope. There must be a way for you to break free . Whatever you do, please be safe, you and your children. ((((((((((((( mrsp ))))))))))))

BTW: welcome to PC. Keep posting. We'll be here to listen to you and support you.