kv.....

After reading your post I have a bit more insight into your comments to me. As I have stated before posting can be a dangerous way to communicate as there is no immediate feedback to clarify. The words are taken at face value and sometimes, especially when emotions are raw, they can be taken the wrong way.

I know I am a bit tender right now. Perhaps you could even say that I have a "thin skin". I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that despite the major mistakes I have made I am a very sensitive individual. But, I can also be strong, but admittedly I haven't really demonstrated that very much lately.
The loss of this relationship and the consequences of what I have done are huge and I just need time to grieve and to sort this whole mess out. Losing the love of your life may sound like no big deal to some. The advice would be to heal, fix my problems and, as people say" move on. Well, I will heal (hopefully... having some tough times lately) but I have no intention on moving on in a relationship. Not for a long, long time... if ever. The pain is just too great and I just seem to have this track record of either picking the wrong partner, or screwing things up when I finally found the right one.

I know that kv you were only trying to do what is in my best interest. Frankly, I think you could of used a little more diplomacy and tact. Been a little more understanding of how raw my emotions were and that I am doing my damnedest to be strong and heal.

All of us on here have demons we are battling and many make mistakes, I know I sure have made plenty. But, kv you were big enough to come on and apologize and you were open and honest and it gave me great insight into why you said the things you did.

So don't stop posting. It would just not be fair to you or to others that enjoy reading your posts. You have been a steady contributor here and deserve to continue that.