Angela,

I always thought that the reason she asked me to agree to the no-harm contract, and not you, was that she trusts you more than she trusts me. She has come out and told me that she doesn't trust me. And at the time, she didn't know me very well at all, but she did know that I had been suicidal, and also that I had been picked up and put in jail after an SI episode for an evaluation. And then there's the distance factor with me. I was probably fairly scary for her to start working with. I know that she cares about you a lot though, and I'm actually convinced that she cares more about you, afterall, I don't feel like I'm worth caring about. I'm sure we both have some cognitive distortions when these questions come up.

Rap