Pat, do you think I'm saying it is a character defect? I guess I don't understand. I always knew it was a chemical imbalance but for me to think that if I could accept and move on from my 2 issues would resolve my depression, I was wrong. Being BP is for life. It means continuing to take my slew of meds and continuing with my therapy. I look forward to my therapy appt every week so I understand your excitement. I hope you 'click' with your new T. You'll have to let us know how it goes. It's good to have someone to help work through your issues with you and help with the negative thinking that I have. I'm very excited for you. I don't know what I would do without my therapy.