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Originally Posted by multipixie9
((((TJ))))
please get some help immediately. your daughter does need you and you can change and you can aplogise if you have done anything you feel bad about. when i used to want to be dead when my kids were small someone told me that a bad mother was better than no mother at all. your children need you and you need a chance to have healing in your life. the pain and wrong can stop in your generation. i was able to break the chain in my own family. my children have some problems but they are basically healthy and happy, good people. there's time for change. you deserve it and so do they. 
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Thanks Multi... I appreciate the hugs and the concern that you have for me. I realize now that trying to run away from all of that, to distance myself from my family was an attempt for me at distancing myself from the abuse and trying to forget about it. I now understand that it has been controlling my life all along, even in the good times because I never allowed myself to enjoy the good times... I was never enough and neither were the people around me... I was my worst critic, as well as theirs, and I wonder why my family doesn't come to visit me...heavy sigh!
Anyway, I am working on breaking the chain. I don't want to be this person any more, I want better for myself and my dd. I realize that can only happen by changing MY BEHAVIOR not everyone else's around me... That begins by valuing myself as a human being, realizing that is going to be difficult, because I didn't experience it!
Thanks again so very much...
TJ
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