mel
welcome I am a newbie too
I also suffered years of sexual abuse from my bro to start and then uncles and cousins took over from there. I suffered for years in silence telling no one. But now at the age of 47 I am in Therapy and finally someone is listening and someone believes me.......yes someones BELIEVES me ...........something my bro always told me would NEVER happen. I am taking it slow and it has been painful but I have a wonderful T and he is a BIG help. My hubby who I have been married to for 28 yrs is in T with me once a week too and he is being patient and understanding. So do not count your husband out.
I want to share my story sometime on the boards but I am scared right now so going to take my time and not rush it. I commend you for being so couragish for taking a BIG leap on the first post. Good going. That is a BIG step on taking your power back from your prep.
Keep your children close and your eyes open and your heart open and listen to your heart. It something feels wrong go with it. I wish I would have and I could have saved my daughters from going through some of the h*ll I went through and now watching them struggling with things in their lives as a result of. It is heart breaking and fills me with guilt and shame.