(((( Nina )))) I agree with bipolar_bear. You NEED to call your T and let them know what's going on. This is a dangerous situation for you. You've been through alot and are still going through alot with your son, but you must remember that you have to take care of yourself too in order to be able to care for him the way you need to. I wish you the best of luck, hun. You're very special to me, and I worry about you. Please call your T. Love ya.