(((((((((((Beadlady)))))))))))))) I so understand those feelings. Some days it does feel like it's not going to get better and some days I wonder why the heck I started therapy in the beginning. I told T once, it was so much better before I knew what the heck was going on. She said it wasn't really, but I just didn't have awareness about what was going on. I was still in distress and it was hard for me and those around me, but I was off in my inside world not even knowing.

I do think things can get better but the problem is that we have been living in hell. T said sometimes we have to walk through hell to get to the ladder on the other side to get out. I just keep trying to picture that ladder on the other side. Hang in there beadlady.