It all started in the summer holidays....

I started to lose intrest in some things , wasn't as active as usual and felt really depressed.
But it has seemed to get worse.
When I am going to go some where fun (i.e thorpe park) I feel really happy about it and unhappy about it.
I get angry for no reason sometimes
and I can be quite agressive.
I sometimes hate who I am ,and sometimes feel as if I am on top of the world.
I have been suicidal at times , but I haven't had the best of life yet.
Like when my father beat my mum up and tried to beat her to death when I was 6 , right in front of my eyes?!.

But anyway...
Sometimes I am much more talkative than usual , and have more confidence at times. Even though my confidence is very LOW. I can't even ask a teacher something sometimes.

But I need to know. And I know it isn't hormones. Because this has been going on for AGES.

And also , I may be a bit too young for this site ¬¬ but this stuff keeps getting worse. I am 12 years old BUT I will be 13 on halloween .

You better wish me happy birthday XD

But also my uncle gets angry for no apparent reason , and goes crazy sometimes , but he was badly bullied at school. Just to let you know if that links with anything.

I need to know now because It could get even worse.

Please help if I have an illness or something.