Small steps, greg. Do you have a t that you go to? If not you might want to start there. If you, keep going. I applaud you for wanting to move forward--it's hard and scary. Taking a chance--on anything--is one of the hardest things we have to do in life, yet that's what life is about. We take a chance daily--some may be bigger chances than others though. Maybe you could try a support group; that way you are starting small. Remember you are always safe here.