i hope i dont overstep in any way (((Bebop)))) in time you will understand and be allowed to release the pain of losing someone you love so very much.. maybe for now you are letting yourself feel the good of the times you shared and no matter how sweet the memory it is followed by the pain of the loss you are feeling...

i pray you will feel the positive, strong, loving connections in your life... i pray you will let the strong, positive, loving feelings live beyond even death...

i pray you will feel love always (((Bebop)))