Just want to toss out there that if you broke your arm, you would wear a cast, right? If you had to have your appendix out, you would have surgery. If you had diabetes, you would take insulin. If you had cancer you would be treated. I'm going to get on my soapbox herefor a minute. We can't stop people from "labeling" "us" if "we" don't stop labelling ourselves. Depression, the desire to SI, bipolar...it's all a medical condition. It is a chemical imbalance in the brain. It is no different than arthritis or diabetes or a broken bone! I'm certainly not saying go around and broadcast it to the whole school anymore than you would if you had anyother other kind of illness. What I am encouraging is for you to please take a step back and see how you are withholding help from yourself. It's like if you had a cold and there was cold medicine on the table but you told yourself you're too tough to need cold medicine. TAKE IT. Take the help that is out there. There is an awesome billboard on my way to work. It has a picture of a man on it and it says: I am a husband, a father, an artist. I am bipolar. Mental illness is something I have, not something I am. Ok, jumping down off my soapbox now. Regarding your anger--Koosh balls work great! So does bubblewrap. Honest to God I used to have bubblewrap in my desk at work (try it in your locker). Silly putty, too. It's quite, you can stretch it, twist it, dig your fingers in it (and make really cool imprints from newspaper!)