sj, I'm glad that I'm helping you, I know I'm trying. Don't know quite what to say about your friend not liking the restaurant you picked except that they're being rude and although it upsets you, as it would me, let them stay home then. The importance should be the celebration of your birthday and not what they're going to eat. How exactly does your gf try to control you, do you mind sharing? You can tell me in PM if you don't want to say it on the forum, or maybe it's too private.

Happy Birthday! I know how you feel about not caring about it though, I've been in that position several times, holidays too. Is the reason you don't care because you're so depressed right now? I'm glad you're going back to therapy. I think once you do and start to get some things out, you'll start to feel better. Of course, you can always PM me whenever you want and we're all here for you on the forum. You're not alone in your feelings, we've all been where you are right now or are there with you now, so we all understand how you feel. You're not alone. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that. Keep talking sweetie, get it out. It helps, if even just to get it off your chest if nothing else. You can feel comfortable talking freely here, knowing you won't be judged at all.

((((((((((( sj )))))))))) YOU'RE NOT ALONE, WE LOVE YOU HERE!!!