Thank you, Suzy. I go back and forth so many times during just one week - feeling angry, feeling sad, feeling strong, feeling destroyed. What kills me is that he seems like he's having the time of his life. Meeting/lying to new women, getting his bills paid, his food and meds paid for, laying out all day, going out all night. I know somewhere within he is suffering, but it sure doesn't look like it. Maybe if he looked or seemed sad it might be easier to take. Thank you for your support.