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thank you all for your kind support and your acceptance of me right where i am. that is a huge gift and it means so much to me.
my friend and i swapped emails and he is worried that i think i wont heal unless i dig up all the past and confront it. i used to feel that way and now I DO NOT. i trust my God to help me get healing in many ways and they DO NOT have to include me knowing everything that happened to me. i do not even want to know the full measure of the horror i witnessed and/or experienced.
what i would like to have, if i could, is my friends trust. i want him to trust me that i have not made a choice to have woundedness and victimization as my identity. i would like him to believe me when i say how tired of the healing journey i have become. it would mean a lot to me if he would just understand that i am at the place where i must put one foot in front of the other and breathe in and out and do what comes to me until the job is done and i can move on to a place where healing is not the center of my life - but one of the satellites that encircle my life.
in the past some have shamed me by saying i wanted to be on the "sick list" to escape from life's challenges and responsibilities. maybe i was back then, i'm not sure. i am sure now that i want to be in the mainstream of life without "handicap plates" to designated me as one of the walking wounded.
thank you to all of you who stated your support and all of you who keep warm thoughts for me. it makes a difference in my life that you are here !!!
((((((((((griffe, orange blossom, kiya, bipolarbear, )))))))))))(((((((wanttoheal, fuzzybear, pattyannee,))))))))))))) ((((((((silentandscared, jinnyann, sabby, sannah))))))))))
OFFERING SUPPORT WHEN YOU, YOURSELVES ARE IN PAIN IS HEROIC AND IS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT TO ME!!!
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Last edited by multipixie9; Oct 14, 2008 at 05:13 AM.
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