Scared Sad,

I've been there. I know the feeling. One time I had moved away, but moved back (to be closer to my parents) when I realized that not only did I not have any support in the new city, but that if I died, there wouldn't be anyone to even notice it.

Anyway, I totally agree with the above post that therapy, especially group therapy, can help you to uncover reasons or behaviours that may be contributing to your difficulty in forming close friendships. Afterall, our acquaintances won't tell us why they don't want to be closer to us!!

Secondly, you mention that you enjoy your independence. Maybe it would be beneficial to ask yourself why you would like to have closer friendships. Really ask yourself. Is it because you really want to share your life with someone or is it to subdue that sick feeling that makes you think without close friendships you're not really important?