Christina....sweet heart your not gross. You are no to blame. I think that as a group here on PC we need to band together and take back out basic right not to feel gross. You are beautiful wonderful seperate human being. You are not him or he is not you. he wont know if you egt mad at him (my T told me this a couple of weeks ago a light bulb moment) . I love you because you are kind and sweet and compassionate. Plase believe me.