I just feel like my t is trying to get me to dig into feelings and time periods that i just want to leave alone, i haven't even got through with the reasons of why i self harm and today he started back with the whole abuse thing and i left feeling invisable and unwanted and unheard and the meds suck i hate zyprexa, ive gained so much weight on it not to mention the other meds with it. im done i just feel like giving up on it all- he wants me to journal my self harm - every time i journal i go back to the last entry and it triggers me bad and theres more i just dont want to discuss them all right here right now. sorry im a mess im crying right now and i cant think straight