...at me because I never help anyone and just post about my own stupid problems. But I have a dilemma.

I am now at a "safe school" for kids with anxiety problems who just can't fit into the regular school system. I've gone for one week, and it has been fine. Up until today.

I've discovered over the weekend [thanksgiving in Canada] that I have been supressing my memories from my second hospitalization,so today, the memories were bothering me, my mom dropped me off, I walk in and... it just hit me. I looked at the old fashioned building with the whitewashed walls, and I'm there again. The feelings of being unsafe, and the adrenilene and the fear, and the running away to walk the streets in an unsafe part of town just so they wouldn't kill me, and the terror when I came back expecting to die...

So I left. I walked home after telling them in tears that I couldn't be there today, and phoning my mom. I'm planning to go again tommorow and see if I could make it through the day.

My question is: What do I do if it happens again tommorow? The only place to go from this school is to drop out, and I can't have that happen. And also: What happened? Was it some major anxiety attack?

Anyways, Thank-you for listening.