Maybe with your journalling you could journal on loose-leaf paper--when you're done you fold it up and put it in an envelope so you don't have to read your last entry. Or journal on the computer, then print out each one right before your appointment. Maybe next time you can let him know how hard it was for you to come back (duh--he should know that) and you'd really like to stay focused on one thing at a time. As hard as it is to remember even though he's there to help you, you are paying him and shouldn't have to visit anything you don't feel comfortable doing. I'm with you on the weight gain. Lyrica and Lexapro made me huge, therefore more depressed, therefore eating more, therefore more depressed so lets increase the dose because you're more depressed! My family doctor said, "oh get over yourself. You're almost 40, you're not 20 anymore. It's unrealistic to expect to have the same body you did then." Hey, thanks for the support lady!! Sorry, babbling. Just wanted to know you are not alone, but please give the medication some time to fully get in your system and start to help.