Saw pdoc today. She didn't seem to understand most of what I was telling her about wanting to go lay down in the grass and enjoy the hyper-reality of things. However, she decided that I'm sort of in a medium level of up-n-downs- not completely manic as the meds are still doing their job- but not very well. I feel like I want to beat people up. Then go lay in the grass. But she did give me some blank stares- especially when I told her about not wanting to go to school and WHY. AND the itching! Ugh. So she put me on Risperdal (sp?) and I guess I'll try that tonight. Of course, maybe everything's more vivid than usual because I got new contacts. lol... I really was wanting to beat people up though. PLUS.... when I had just finished checking out, this woman in line to check out was STARING at me! Completely. And didn't even look away when I looked at her, so I glared at her.

p.s. This is the beginning of my day... http://forums.psychcentral.com/showp...32&postcount=1