Blue its taken me a few days to read the whole thread and i just want to say ((hug))

You shouldnt have to go through this. I think...in a way you will be ok though because i dont think you'll turn out to be like your abusers. You have compassion and love for other people...unlike them..

I pray that your brother's chemotherapy will work and that you'll find the love that you most deserve and need in life.