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Old Mar 31, 2005, 08:23 PM
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Trust in the Therapist-
For the first time I consciously trust my T rather than just trusting in authority he represents. Trust was established not because I was impressed with his supior position - but only because he WAS willing to be critsized for behavior I found insensitive. Even though he explained why he said what he did he was agreeable to my perception. It was at the end of a session when I had a flashback of abuse and was dissociated and regressed . After I became awake enough he gave the standard verbal nudge of "Well that was a good session." Since I had been remembering an abuse episode I took his comment as a pronouncement of my experience as good and the "was" part of the statement was inappropriate because the session was still going on in my head and would be for the rest of the day. I guess I'm saying that I needed to be allowed to protest and have that protest be found valid so I could forgive his momentary insensitivity and he could forgive my misunderstanding of his intent. We were equally fallible and have carried on from there with more spontiniety.