I haven't talked to my ex-husband for a couple months. I had been angry because he hadn't paid a bill that was his responsibility. We divorced amicably so it was our pattern to chat online every couple weeks just to check in. But since I had been angry I hadn't made any effort to get it touch. I thought it would be good for me to have him completely out of my life for awhile as I learn to be my own person after the divorce.

Anyway..........I just heard from him (IM conversation). He just lost his job. It stired up all these feelings in me that I'm having a hard time dealing with. I played a mother role in our relationship so I immediately have the urge to ask him a bunch of questions and problem solve.

Another feeling is relief or confirmation might be a better word, that his life is no longer my problem. His wanting to live a more unstable/risky life was opposite of what I wanted. It was an area that we clashed on in our marriage and caused me huge amounts of anxiety.

I also feel sad that he's going through a hard time and once again his grand hopes at a job haven't turned out how he wanted.

I had been wondering how he was doing, but now I wish I didn't know. I'm havning a hard time settling down from this.