in group tonight miss 10 had a terrible fierce urge to push our pen right through my arm processing is still so hard for her. kept switching back and forth, but kept talking with her - she drew out her SI wants - was really grateful there were no sharps nearby. lot of compartmentalizing going on tonight. Didn't tell the T tho. Didn't know if it was right to. to scared still to speak up about those things. i am really proud of her for listening to me, staying with me, and not even attempting to harm with the pen.