This is now affecting my new relationship. I depersonalize, and he gets confused and worried because I stop talking, I often find moving my body to be...unpleasant. Not physsically really...it's just like "what is this thing attached to me"? He gets worried because I'm frighteningly disconnected from reality. The only way I can describe it is that normally I'm "plugged" into an outlet but every so often the plug falls out of the outlet and I'm like a vacuum cleaner without power - I might as well be dead, because that's how I feel.

I don't know how to plug myself back into the outlet. These episodes can be short - 20 minutes, or long - 2-6 hours. While I don't have an episode every day, they are pretty severe when I do.

I really haven't been eating much - not due to an eating disorder, but because food isn't an experience that has any benefit. I can taste food, but...flavours are less vivid, and there's no pleasure derived from the experience. In my head it's like this, "Oh, I taste banana, I taste pork, I taste sugar" but I no longer have a sense of "I LOVE bananas, I hate dried out pork, etc"

Other symtoms are a loss of relevance to time. I can stay in one position for hours and feel no need to move at all, though I am physically perfectly capable of moving. It can take me a long time to respond, again, I can talk, walk, function perfectly well on a physical level, but mentally...I feel distant from people, to the point of people not even seeming real to me even if logically I know they are.

It's hard to explain to someone why on occaison they tell you sweet things...and you say sweet things back but you seem to be on autopilot.

On one hand, I'm not like this most of the day, but when it hits, only time can remove the glass box surrounding me.