Hi. Sorry this is all so strong for you right now. I can tell how much it scares you.

We used to call it 'living behind a glass cage'. The world was so far away. Guess the glass was pretty thick.

I wonder if you know, or can figure out, what triggers each epsiode off for you? Maybe next time you become aware of it you could try to remember what happened or what you were doing or feeling right before it started. Guess I'm going on the assumption that it's not happening just for the fun of it. I wonder what all that numbing out and self-protection could be protecting you from?