I know what you mean. I was on Effexor XR and Topamax and I was in the hospital twice--and, of course, they increased the meds during my first stay (and tried to add klonopin, but I refused it; even 0.25mg once a day made me too loopy.) My impulsivity--something I have a LOT of issues with--was markedly increased ESPECIALLY if I was going through withdrawal, if I forgot to refill a prescription or something. Just... not a med I'd ever take again.

And I also know what you mean about the Drs. office not caring. I saw the same Dr. for quite a while, through intensive outpatient therapy (in the hospital 8 hrs. a day, sleep at home) and through 2 inpatient stays. When I finally stopped going (I changed employers and lost insurance for a while) I never got any sort of follow up... that really, really sucks. Way to make patients with lagging self-esteem feel even better about themselves, hey?