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you dont know how much it helps to know that your out there, you care and you understand!
bead also dont have permission to leave this planet yet, altho there are still times when we widh we did. Patienceficult to have with ourselfs these days!
You are so rite.......between the outside pain and the inside pain put tog. it can be really difficult to put things in the proper perspective and have a postiive attitude. We are trying..............these days we wish we could look in from the outside instead of being on the inside looking out because maybe bead would see tings more clearly and realistically. Bead just wants peace too.........and maybe a little joy once in a while!!

we are sure you will 'get there' in due time ( maybe your closer then you thnk).....so will bead one day....maybe its just the hell that we seem to be continuing to walk thru that we're so sick of..

bead send all of u lots of safe hugs.............so glad to know u care and lets u know that we cares about u's also

take care

mary