(((((((((luckyyou)))))))) I'm so sorry you feel all alone. I know it's hard, but when you are home alone, try to do things to make that time enjoyable. Read, do crossword puzzles, teach yourself to crochet, try baking or cooking something new, volunteer. Anything so that you develop YOU. As much as you may love him, you need to love you, too, and need to develop things that you enjoy. Heck, even fill a bath with bubbles and a nice scent, listen to your favorite music and relax.