(((((((((((((((((((((Greg)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry that the person who let you down was the person who should have loved and protected you ...... I am so sorry you had to endure all that 'torture' and abuse...... you were in NO WAY to blame for any of it .... not at all......

You are a survivor ... you have been broken, and you CAN mend. Like all survivors you are strong, even though you may not feel it .... you are compasionate towards others because of what you went through yourself. This is a BIG positive out of so much negative.

You can heal my friend..... I hear waht you've been through. It makes self esteem and confidence almost non existent. It makes you feel angry, bewildered, maybe ashamed and guilty .... The shame and guilt belong to those who hurt you .... not the other way around ....

The anger is pain .... deep deep sorrow .....

If you are not in therapy please try and find a good therapist who you trust ... this will take time maybe, trust is so important .....

Keep reaching out to us here .... many uderstand I promise you that .....

I too have been in that awful place ..... it took me a long time to seek help .... now I am healing and on the right path. I wish and hope for this for you too .... it is possible ....... please trust me on this .... my friends here, my therapist and talking, writing, journaling have helped me so so much .... best wishes to you Greg, you can do this ...... with love and care, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo